UUgh

I'm starting to think that this whole blog thing is no good after all... I don't write my deep thoughts about things that alter my life. I write about things that I wouldn't normally say because people wouldn't wanna listen. I think i'm just gonna make people listen to all the things I say, and stop blogging lol.

Children.

I watched the O's kids today.

And, I just wrote an entire blog post about what I did today, but it was stupid so I deleted it.

I'de rather talk about something worthwhile. And the O's kids sparked my thoughts.

Kids have a skewed view of the world. They LOVE it. They are excited about everything. The mundane is extraordinary. The delicacies of life are gross. Money has no value yet. The only thing that they want to do all day is GO. If they slow down, they'll miss something. I want to have my hardest decision of the day be the color of my underwear.

Now life is lame. There are reasons for everything. Money is the fuel, or the drive for most things. As you get older, you start to realize that everything boils down to something. That there is an ending. No magic anymore, LAME. But life isn't lame because i've started to understand the world around me. Its lame because most things boil down to someone being selfish.

I want to see unity. I want to see people coming together because they understand that 2 eyes are better than one. I want people coming together and sharpening each other. And I want to see marriages that work. I want to see the impossible. I want to see things as I did when I was a child. Oh well.

"When I was a child, I spoke as a child. Now i'm over 18, and my voice is an octave deeper. Does that make me a man?"

Soli Deo Gloria

Show me your friends, and i'lll tell you who u are...

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOW
This statement is kinda true. Cept. I wanna edit it a lil bit. I think it should say; "Show me what you're passionate about, and you'll have it later, including the consequenses." If people are passionate about receiving something, they will most likely get what they want. The only problem is that you get all the consequences as well. You wanna eat badly everyday, you can. Then you get fat. You want to be exclusive, and only have one set of friends, and you'll never see other cultures or learn anything from people who are different. You want to be a Christian, you'll never know what its like to live life through the eyes of people who believe in other religions.

You can't be passionate about everything, and I think that there are some things that are worth giving up. For instance, I'm a christian. I am that way because living as a non-christian isn't worth giving up knowing Christ. I'm passionate about rap music, because I believe that its harder so spit 16 bars eloquently, than it is to whine into a mic. Which moves me to my next point.

Our passions are our own. Assuming that all people should have the same passions is not only ridiculous, its close minded. If you love dogs, and someone had a bad experience with dogs when they were younger, its not dysfunctional that they don't wanna play with fluffy. And, those fights about who's point of view is more right always gets on my nerves. I'd rather just encourage people to pursue their passions, until they get close to me. But, that's a blog topic in itself. I will put down the keyboard now.

"Big decisions are more than just once choice. They are a choice to make choices."

Soli Deo Gloria

Patience

Patience is a sweet gift to have naturally. Because if you don't have it naturally, then it must be acquired. Acquiring patience is usually done through being in situations that arouse the impatience. Upon arriving at said situations, one must realize the stupidity of the urge to kill everyone for the minor things that they do, and decide to be okay with life. This process is... annoying. I kinda feel like habakkuk.

I've decided that I'd rather have people be different, that this whole patience thing is worth it, because if there were a lot of mes running around, this world would be a scary place.

Its always the minor things that get you. The major ones have to be addressed, or the relationship will fall apart. But the way that your friend eats pizza, or the fact that he never finishes a Gatorade, probably shouldn't affect if u like them or not.

"Our similarities bring us together, but its our differences that keep us sharp."

Nate
Soli Deo Gloria

Why would my friends like me? I'm not that special...

What benefit do you, a college student with loans out of your ears, have to offer anyone else? You're a really new christian, you make gigantic mistakes all the time and are therefore unworthy of responsibility and leadership. Plus, your not really that funny, people just laugh to make you feel better. And people don't really enjoy your company, they are trying to use you to get to something bigger, better and worthwhile.

WHAAAAAAAT???? That is dumb. NO ONE should believe that.

First off, if that's true, the people that I'm friends with aren't good people. They are bloodsucking hooligans that deserve to be lonely. I don't make friends with hooligans. As Corey would say "I rebuke that."

So, Why the heck to so many people (including myself) think stupid thoughts like these all the time? I think its because we are waiting for our friends to fail us. I think that secretly, we expect them to leave eventually, and we want to cut them off before they cut us off. We want to hurt less than they do.

That's a bleak existence. Being constantly surrounded by people who will fail you sooner or later, never knowing if you can trust anyone... never being able to relax, and just say whatever.... always having surface level relationships. It sucks, and its not worth it. We should just believe that all our friends are for us, and when evidence comes against that, we should TALK TO OUR FRIEND ABOUT IT.

So, in short. Why do my friends like me? Because for some reason, they think i'm special. And the short amount of time that they have on earth, they want to spend some of it with me. I'de be a fool to refuse that because they haven't called me all week to hang out.

And.... I just decided that i'm gonna end my blogs w/ quotes.

"Confrontation will always expose your false assumptions."

Soli Deo Gloria

First?

I guess this is my first post. So, instead of blogging about all the reasons I started a blog, or saying why i'm excited, i'll start off by listing some things I hate.

1. Lets start with blogs. I hate learning more about a person from their blogging than from my real-life interactions. I'm part of that close minded group of people that believe all people express themselves best in person, and that its a deliberate attack on a friendship if information is passed through an open forum before I hear it personally.

2. I hate when I realize i am close minded.

3. I hate people living below their potential. One of my goals in life is inspiring people to be better at who they are.

4. I hate people not giving me constructive criticism. If I know that you care about me, bring the pain.

5. I hate being predictable. So, if you want to predict me, don't try and control me. DONT EVER TRY AND CONTROL ME.

6. I hate being told what to do. That goes hand in hand with telling me what MY future is going to be. YOU DONT KNOW THE FUTURE. And if you think you do, i've got someone to introduce you to. God.

I hate all these things, but if you care enough to read this, I probably love you.


Soli Deo Gloria,
Nate